I was about to post
a really heated rant about ignorance, but my pen pal just emailed me and it made it all go away and I don’t feel like blowing up (for now). She went to the library and borrowed The Time Traveler’s Wife just because I had mentioned it :3
Anyway, this rant on ignorance has been a long time coming. I’ll probably write about it the next time I’m reminded.
I haven’t posted anything personal (besides formsprings) lately.
Anyway, today was exceptionally productive at work (aside from my computer dying). It probably helped that I didn’t tumble as much :x. I’m still unhappy with this place though (although that’s a whole ‘nother ramble for another time). Even though the money is coming in, I still feel like I made the wrong choice to stay.
I’m still pretty young though (I feel so anyway), and I suppose this won’t be where I’ll be forever. I’m just afraid that my passion for learning will gradually fade and that I won’t be motivated to go back to school and go out and teach like I’ve wanted to. Not only that, my support system for this decision I’ve been wanting to make to go abroad is pretty much non-existent and I feel as though I’d be going it alone. I’ve already been called stupid for considering not taking this job and going back to school. Ultimately, I took it to save up as much as I can, to do as much as I can with it. I don’t care if I have to do it myself.
That’s pretty much why I’ve stuck with tumblr over the past few months. It serves as an outlet for things I feel nobody else around here has any interest in. It’s odd how I feel so much more support from perfect strangers than the people I’ve known for years. What’s your reason for tumbling?
Randomness
I have never experienced “tears of joy” before. I do not know if it’s my own inability to cry or if I have just not experienced a happiness at that level yet. I can only wonder.
back home now.
that kind of felt like some kind of dream. thanks to everyone that sent a nice text, e-card, letter, fspring, or what-have-you. it was really appreciated :> i guess i have time for some tumblin’ again.
Things that might happen in 2010
- apartment/condo closer to work!
- car
- California (kick it w/dldmb)
- Japan/Korea (kick it w/lala?) :D
- learn more about photography
- converse in Korean
- first hockey game
- girlfriend?!
- be happy
I’m so fascinated with space. The idea that when you look at stars, you are actually looking deep into the past, is so beautiful. The light that reaches your eye has had a long journey, one that I can really appreciate. I feel a deep sense of connection to something unknown. I can’t explain it, really.
Whenever I’m online on a messenger, like MSN, AIM, etc, I hardly ever initiate. This is not because I’m shy or anything like that (it’s the internet), it is because I don’t want to be a bother. Don’t take it as anything more than that. It’s just me.
Also, if you are just like me, don’t be afraid to send me a message! I sign on because I want to talk!
It’s been over two months with not a single word exchanged between us. Even if it’s for the better, it’s been a complete struggle not to break down and reach out to you again. I’ll never forget 2009 because of you.
I still have this. I hope happiness envelops your life, always.
